Life...

College life is getting tense. The weather is getting colder and colder. I don't like it here. I hate New York. I hate the people here. I hate everything here. Sometimes, I think to myself why is life so unfair to me. But, sometimes I felt that i'm a lot luckier compare to many people. I should be grateful. Life is hard but no matter what we need to move on. Right? I'm trying each and every day to live happily. Faking a smile, a laugh isn't easy...

Busyyy!!

Hey there! :) Been soooo soooo busy these days. College sucks! But, it's still fun sometimes. hehe. I have been spending 2 days on my blogging assignment. ==" I feel like blogging but I don't have anything to blog. Well, I might as well share my blogging assignment here. :)

here is the prompt :

Post #1 - DUE SEPTEMBER 20, 2010 AT 5PM

The theme for this year's PERFORMING DIASPORAS: IDENTITIES IN MOTION Project is "Who Do You Think You Are?"
Reflect on the following four questions, and craft a response of 400-500 words. Feel free to integrate media into your post!

• Tell us who you think YOU are
• Share your top 3 concerns about your freshmen year at Baruch College and explain why
• So far, what do you think will make your Baruch College experience different from your high school experience?
• How do you think your first year at College will change you?

and.. here is what i wrote :

I am a freshman at Baruch College this Fall 2010. Like any other freshman, I’m going to college with the hope of getting good grades and gaining knowledge that will help us to success in the future. Being a freshman in college is not as easy as I imagined. Everything is so different from high school especially if you are not graduated from high school in the states. But, I believe I can work things out and hopefully everything will go along smoothly.

The top three concerns about my freshman year at Baruch College are grades, time management and my personality. Firstly, grades are really important to me. Especially during the freshman year. I believe that if I don’t have a good foundation or base, I won’t go any higher. The freshman year is like the base of a building. In order to build a tall and steady building, we need a strong base. I’m not sure about my major yet , but since I’m in Baruch College which is famous for its business school, I might as well consider something to do with business. The required GPA to enter the Zicklin School of Business is high. Therefore, I must work very hard on my grades in order to be accepted. Second, I’m not good in time management. Back then at home, I have my parents to manage everything for me. I never think about what should I do first or do later. Now, I have to manage my own time. My life is really a mess during the first week of the Fall semester. I’m working and studying at the same time. At first, its hard to cope with the crazy schedule I had in my daily life. But then, it got better now.Third, I’m a really shy and quiet person. I find it hard to communicate with people around me. Speaking to a stranger and in the crowd are my biggest fear in life. I knew that this will create an obstacle for me from being a part of the society especially if I wanted to major something to do with business. I hope my experience in Baruch College would change me completely into an outgoing with high self-esteem person.

Experience in Baruch College is obviously different from high school. There is a huge difference for me between high school and college since I graduated high school in Malaysia. People here speaks perfect English. Although my first language is English but, I have no confidence speaking in English in the states. In high school, the number of people is not that many but in college, there are a lot of people around the campus. Since I’m a shy person, I find it uncomfortable to be in such crowd.

I hope the first year in Baruch College would change me into a more independent, well organized and outgoing person. Hopefully by joining clubs will give me courage to face my biggest fear in life.

College is cool!

College life is fun! Its totally different from high school. The class that I enjoy the most is english, theater and anthropology. Political science makes me so sleepy. Its kind of like history. Assignments haven't really start yet but I felt the pressure already. I don't know whether can I survive through this semester.

I felt like going back to Malaysia suddenly. Its like IMMEDIATELY! I don't know. Maybe i'm homesick. People here are different from Malaysia. Back in Malaysia, I have cool friends, cool family, and... whatever belongs to me is cool. haha. I miss Malaysia.

I told 99 truths before. But, I decided to tell one lie since everyone doesn't believe me when I'm telling the truth. Everyone believes me when I lie. People loves to lives in denial and world full of lies. why? I feel so unsecure. I feel unsafe. I feel anytime whatever belongs to me will disappear. I'm scared that people might cheat on me.

What's wrong with me???

Its long weekend! Come on Mary Ann! Cheer up!

Minnie Mouse inspired nails

I did a minnie mouse inspired nails two days ago. I saw the video at youtube and thought it was cute. :) So, I try it. it does look cute.

http://youtube.com/cutepolish

They have alot more cute and pretty designs. I wanted to try the strawberry next! teehee

French manicure with red tip!

-703 Lollipop from Essie-

Dot white dots on it. In the video its actually larger dots.

but, oh well.. for some reasons i make it small

Draw black ribbons! :)

Cuteeeee right?? :)

Ohh.. one more. I did it randomly. LOL.

Cuteeee not?

Sally Hansen's 02 Green with envy

Sally Hansen's 27 Mellow Yellow

Black dots some random drugstore brand

Exam!

Tomorrow is the exam already!! :( Prof. Taylor asked me not to be too nervous. When i'm nervous i do badly. Is there anything that can make me not to nervous??

Genius me!

It's been a while since i blogged. Very busy these days especially the past two weeks. Summer immersion classes, work, summer immersion classes, work and WORK! I wonder how am I going to survive when school reopens. Gosh. 2 hrs of trip from my house to Baruch is painful. T.T but thank god, hehe, there is a thing which can make the time pass faster. Guess what? hehe. Shhh... *this thing can make time pass REAL fast! its like REALLLLLL FAST!*

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NINTENDO DSi

teehee

I'm a busy girl in a busy worlddd~~

Hence, my schedule is damn tight. But, because i'm GENIUS , so i can make everything on time. hehe. I'm lazy person and my bag is always messy. oh ya, not to forget to mention, i'm a forgetful person too! So, i guess this is the best way to remember the schedule of the buses and which subway to take for the fastest way.

to Kinokuniya!

teehee

to Kate Kanebo shop

i know its unrelated

To times square's biggest Forever 21!!!

*screams*

To college point

To flushing.

Hehe, smart right?

I'm confused.

I just want to live like normal person does.

Is it that hard?

I did it.

I did it today.

I avoided you.

You did not say anything

I did not say anything

You did not look at me

I did not look at you

Good job!!!!!

keep it up Mary Ann Lee

Just for 2 months!

I don't know why am I so emo today.

PMS i guess.